I feel so human...

...which is good, because I am human. But I am feeling especially human today because I just can't leave well enough alone.

I decided I had found the perfect program for my computer. Boy was I wrong. Six days and countless hours later, I still can't get to what I need to get to. I am still struggling just to get the silly thing working. How very frustrating!

I think I am on a common theme here for all of humanity. How often do we think we can do it better, or we found a better way? How often do we just plunge straight ahead on what we think is a good thing, only to later find that it wasn't so good after all. Once again, I have to wonder if I am just going to fast. I know better than to mess with a working system. But I just couldn't resist. And, yes, I really do know better. Now, before you go giving me advice on how to recover, let me tell you that I actually know what happened and how to fix it. The problem is that the fix takes time, lots of time. The one thing I don't have much of.

Isn't that the way it is? When we think we know better and charge ahead, we can look back and know exactly what went wrong. We can even give detailed explanations of exactly what happened and how. And we usually know where we went awry and how to remedy the situation. The problem is the discipline of the remedy. We actually have to sit down and do it. It may be painful or tedious or even scary, but we still need to work to get back to obedience.

You know, Paul wrote about this idea. For we know that the Law is spiritual, but I am of flesh, sold into bondage to sin. For what I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not practicing what I {would} like to {do,} but I am doing the very thing I hate. But if I do the very thing I do not want {to do,} I agree with the Law, {confessing} that the Law is good. So now, no longer am I the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me. For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh; for the willing is present in me, but the doing of the good {is} not. For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want. But if I am doing the very thing I do not want, I am no longer the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me. Romans 7:14-20

My computer problems are not related to sin. But my propensity to think I have it all figured out is. May God forgive me.